It's Okay To Not Know
I don’t know, I said
It’s okay to not know, said the Universe
But what if I fail, I asked
You’ll only fail if you do not try, was the response.
Time after time
I started and stopped
I questioned and cried
Seeking only to love.
I don’t know, I said
Oh my child, you surely do, said the Universe
But what if I’m wrong, I asked
There is no wrong was the quiet reply.
~~ Teri Angel
So many times in life I have doubted myself. I have started a project only to lose my way and abandon it. I have listened to my own ego talk calling myself names that I would never call others. For years, I was my own worst enemy. We teach others how to treat us, so when we treat ourselves with disrespect and contempt then we are giving permission for others to treat us that same way. It took me decades to realize this and to see how harmful it is to put myself down, even in a teasing manner. Just as little kids mimic what they hear, the words we ascribe to ourselves stick in others minds and many times come out of their mouths. It took a lot of convincing for me to look at myself in the mirror and say words such as “you are worthy” or “you are beautiful.” I remember the first time I tried to do so. I had tears running down my face. I couldn’t possibly see myself that way. There was so much damage that had been done and I was convinced that I was a lost cause. How could I be loved? I felt that society demands perfection and I was far from that. What I came to realize eventually, though, is that nothing else matters except the very moment we are in. Once I understood that concept of letting go of all the things that were behind me, the things that seemed so monumental and unforgivable, my world changed totally. I could breathe again. I could stop calling myself a failure because in the now moment I was a success. I could stop calling myself ugly because I could now see the butterfly emerging. I could stop telling the old story that had long ago ended yet I insisted on keeping it alive. It was a revelation of the deepest level. Nothing else mattered except what I felt about myself in this moment, even if I didn’t believe all of it just yet.
Dear Angels, given that we are all beings of love and light I don’t understand how it is possible that we could treat ourselves in such a horrible way.
Dear Ones, when you entered a human body you did so of your own free will. In your soul contract you decided the lessons, teachings, purpose for your incarnation. Many times it is a fulfillment of a lifetime where you started something and the current lifetime is to complete it. You may have begun a teaching, for example, and in this lifetime you are bringing it to light in a bigger and more expanded way. As part of the teaching/learning process, it becomes necessary for you to understand more fully from the human perspective all the aspects of the teaching. This may seem as if you are starting over; however, in reality you are continuing the learning process to fully integrate it into your understanding for when you teach the whole of it and do so with greater wisdom. Part of this is a remembrance of your magnificence which happens upon fully awakening to who you are. Until you do so, you get caught up in what those in your world tell you about yourself. You start to believe their version of you, so you tell the same story until you wake up. Once awake, you cannot go back into the illusion. That story that seemed so real, along with the human emotions connected to it, helps you to see yourself fully and completely as a being of love. Once you experience the contrast, it makes you more aware of your natural state of being which is love.
Dear Angels, thank you. I love you. Namaste y’all.
Today, I promise to allow myself to be gentle with me as I integrate the learning from the current lifetime with my soul purpose and to see my magnificence in every moment.
Teri Angel is a Happiness Coach, energy healer, best-selling author, spiritual teacher and mentor, and a motivational speaker. Teri is the Peace Campaign Coordinator for We, The World and the founder of a nonprofit organization, Angelspeakers Inc., which offers educational workshops and events centered around environmental awareness to include animals and nature, peace advocacy opportunities and ancient wisdom teachings. Teri’s movement “Peas For Peace” involves strengthening our awareness of the oneness of all, unifying mankind through compassion, peace, love and joy. She was named "She Who Blesses the Sacred Land" during the Peace On Earth Tour and embraces that title with loving grace. www.angelspeakers.com
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