November 25, 2019 ~ Day 4
You would think that change becomes easier with time . You would think, right? Day 4 is behind me finally and boy was it a challenge. I’m not sure how I did it but I set the alarm to go off at the time of my first appointment of the day! Thank goodness I woke up prior to that (thank you angels) but it didn’t leave me with much time to prepare for the meeting I was going into. At my doctor’s appointment there was disappointment because I was told that the sutures have to stay in a little longer. I was hoping to celebrate not having to see doctors for the rest of this year! I contacted a friend in the area and met her for lunch at a new-to-me restaurant. I have to say it was really tempting at this point to have the more tasty sugary fruit bowl on the menu but instead I drew strength from all the people who have been encouraging me this week. I made a healthy choice that was in line with my goal of low carbs and ordered that. It did not come out as the salad I ordered but a wrap instead. Now I had another choice. Eat the wrap (more carbs) or send it back and get what I ordered. There was a moment of hesitancy but I did it. The words “you can do it” kept ringing in my ear. Yes, I can do it and I keep proving it to myself in these small ways that are really big for me.
The day went on with a few more roadblocks and detours, schedule changes, etc. Electronics didn’t work correctly, posting some PR on social media hit a snag. All these things were annoying, frustrating and I found myself finally at the end of the day sitting with a notebook and staring at a blank piece of paper. I didn’t ask why. I asked what I was supposed to do with this. I knew I was not going to give up as that is not in my nature. My motto has always been “where there’s a will, there’s a way.” This was different though. This seemed more like dominoes falling and me wanting to run ahead and stop the crashing process.
I read something that Jim Carrey said and it helped me in a crazy way – imagine that! He was sharing that he read a book memorializing his friend who had passed but he read it backwards and his friend was alive at the end of the story. Hmmm, my brain says it will cooperate and we can do that with this day. So going backward from all the haywire things that took place, I digressed all the way back to where my head was still on the pillow sound asleep and peaceful. It didn’t change any of the events that happened nor make me wish they had been better than what they were; it simply allowed me to go to that moment where all was well in my world. One of my mentors says we can begin again at any given moment and create our reality going forward. I did a reset in my mind and it worked. I focused on what was calm and peaceful. The other things of the day were then minute. The only important one was the one I was left thinking about. In that present moment, I felt no stress. It was just a day and now it is part of the past. I then made a mental note to pay closer attention while setting my alarm!