“At times, our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.” – Albert Schweitzer
November 28, 2019 ~ Day 7
One whole week! Woohoo, I’m finding that Yes, I Can do this! There were a couple of things that made this day extremely difficult to stick to my resolution to both stay focused and positive and also stay within the parameters of eating healthy nutritious food, staying away from what is not good for me. The first one was the realization that it had been a month since my beloved Gizmo left his physical body. It is very difficult to come home to an empty house because he filled it with such huge presence while he was here, for all of his 19 years. It’s been a very quiet month. I miss him sitting there waiting for me to wake up and showering me with love when I finally do. Yes, it was hard to focus as I gave in to a moment of grief for my little boy.
The second thing that made it harder is that it is Thanksgiving. Not because I don't have gratitude - that's the easiest thing in the world. If only the holiday were totally about giving thanks, it would be awesome. The focus has become the food traditions, usually eating more than our bellies can hold. I had accepted an invitation to go to a friend’s house for dinner about a month ago, prior to deciding to do this 10-day challenge. This is a friend who could easily be a gourmet chef. Her cooking is spectacular, no matter what the meal. Well, true to form she had enough food to feed an army and it all looked and smelled awesome. The deserts filled a whole table and there were pies of every kind.
I am sitting here at the end of this trying day knowing that I can do this. I also know that I am not doing it alone. It is because of the support I have that I stick to my commitments. I could have sat and cried all day, immersed in grief but instead I chose to sit in meditation and ask for my aching heart to be healed. I could have had apple, pecan, key lime, or mincemeat pie and in the past I would have said okay to a “tiny bite” because it won’t hurt (yeah right). It’s not the size of the item, it’s going back into old patterns. This journey is helping me see the importance of focus in my commitments. On days like this I feel the angels have sent me earth angels to surround me right alongside them. I am grateful. I read every message, every text, everything that you all share to keep me uplifted. Thank you! #Gizmolove #YesIcan #YesIam